I still really feel bummed out about not passing the test. I think I need to reach out for help because like what is it? I feel dumb. Am I really dumb? I know I am not. I mean, if that one supervisor obtained her full license, I know damn well I can pass this test and obtain mine. What am I doing wrong? 

Oh my gosh.  I didn't pass the test today!  This is my fourth time taking this test like what the f*** is wrong with me?! Why can't I pass this test?  I know I'm smart and I know I know this stuff but this is so frustrating to be here with this fail again. I'm going to have to really take this test a fifth time! You will be saying that “I took this test five times.” What am I not getting? What is the real problem? What is the problem? Is this a joke or something?  I'm putting in all this time, money, and all this effort to study and here I am with another failed attempt. I have participated in study groups, completed three mock tests, I am reading, listening to videos day in and day out and I still did not pass the test for the fourth time. What more can be done? 

I got a massage last night to relax and prepare for this week.  My masseuse told me that I don't take enough deep exhales during the massage. I know he meant literally during the massage, but I took that comment figuratively relating to my work/ life balance in general. It is as taking a deep or inhaling is a metaphor for the stress and negativity I absorb, and I am not exhaling enough. I am not releasing enough. I am not letting go of enough. I am not letting that stress out. Hmmmm... I have to do better.  

This is dedicated to the social worker who has doubts about continuing in the field of social work. This is for the social workers who do not test well. This is for the social worker who is nervous about the licensing exam. This is for the anxious social worker. This is for the social worker who struggles depression, ADHD, anxiety, and all mental health diagnoses that we help clients navigate. This is for the social worker who has thought about a career change and for the social worker who is struggling to find the light in this career.